Watching people in jail may be one of the things that makes me re-evaluate my life. My views on things like jails, death penalties, and what I would do if I was ever in jail are not like anyone else's views I know. I feel as if everyone makes mistakes, some are bigger than others but I also believe that everyone should have a chance to start over. God knows I've made so many mistakes, and I'm gonna be making a lot more. It's part of being a human. I believe people do horrible horrible things but the fact that prison guards got to the extent of such violence to the inmates just makes me sick. Treating people like they are nothing is not a way to treat anyone, not even the worst person in the planet.

No one is ever born as a bad kid. Everyone learns the bad things they do. Some people don't have a way out, or not that they can see of. They think the only way they can survive is to learn the ways of their friends and family members. That means anywhere from gangs to armed robbery. Some people don't have the life I have, the caring community and parents with opportunities for me to strive. When I mess up I am able to get another chance, we should give people that same opportunity to make changes. Everyday you wake up you have the opportunity to make your life better, one step is still a step.

Other than that note life is pretty good. I'm doing well at my job, and I'm getting use to serving. Being able to spend time with my friends back home is wonderful. I love the freedom I have with a car. My relationship with my family has grown stronger. I look forward to conversations now. I feel as if I no longer need to hide things, I'm old enough that I am responsible and there is nothing I have to hide. This is something I should have done a long time ago, but better late than never. I hope you all are having a great Holiday and I'll talk to you later. Remember: "Everyday you wake up you have the choice to change to to not."

Lets see I've been home for 2 days and I would have to say it's pretty good. I thought being home for a whole month would be a disaster, so far not too much of one. I wonder how long this will last though. I now have a car I guess the real question is will I survive my job? I finally was able to go and get my old job back, I'm a waitress at iHop. It's not the best job honestly, I need as new one but I need experience id to be able to get another job… hopefully in the summer.

I am trying my best to get along with my parents, I really am. But I don't think that is going to be my main problem. I guess I would say figuring out what I want is going to be the main problem. Having you in my life is great, I love being able to say that you're mine and have people tell me "you're so lucky, he's so cute" but yet at the same time is this the right one? I saw you yesterday and I really questioned my decision. I want this to work, but do I have the faith and the courage to go on? I don't really know what to say so I'm just gonna go and try and sort things out. I'll talk to you all later. Remember "Sometimes the right decision is the hardest one to make."

How do I start? Lets just start by saying I made it through my first semester in college!! I can’t thank all the people who I have met, became close with, and believed in me for a first semester I will never forget. I can still remember the first day I moved in I was on Facebook and I saw this girl and invited her down to hang out, little did I know she would and still is one of my closest friends here.. I have had my ups and downs, my doubts, and worries about college. Yet throughout all of this I have learned. I have learned to be myself, to trust and not to trust, and to give people a second chance.

These are the life lessons I will come back with, not the grades or the test scores, simply my experiences; I had that reputation for the girl that partied to hard, I will admit that. Guys, don’t have that reputation is sucks, save yourself and party responsibly. My grades have been good, or as far as I can tell. I still have my doubts about this school, it’s s great school however is it really the school for me? I love the people I have met here however the education is not as good as I thought. I made the mistake of only visiting 3 out of the 7 colleges I applied to . I knew from the beginning of the tour I was not going to go to 2 of the 3 I visited. I made the mistake of not “falling in love” with my college. I don’t know Pittsburgh that well, I mean I have only been here 4 months. I’m seriously thinking of transferring to PITT. it’s a lot more work, and a lot harder, but I want that challenge. I would rather have to work my ass off now and be use to it for graduate school than breeze through everything here yet get to stress with graduate school. Pitt. I close enough to Point Park that I can easily go and visit my friends at Point Park. I like that they have a actual campus campus. they have a lot more diversity and they have a better education program. Of course this is a huge decision I’m still thinking about it but I know I can’t be here for 4 years.

In college I have learned that only a few people from back home will be by your side in times of need. In college it’s been hard to connect sometimes, I have a temper as well as being super emotional (not a good mix). I have had several times when I just went into the hallway and cried. There were 3 people always by my side since day #1 of college: Marshall, Jon, and Sofia. They are always going to care, and I will always care about them. I know a lot of people drift apart from their friends and that has happened to a bunch of my friends. But however at the same time I have made some great new friends I love hanging out with. I like that in college you can just be yourself, you have the freedom to make your own choices, and you have to endure the consequences to that freedom. I have loved meeting new people, whether it’s at my school or through a mutual friend.

I know that I am more fit, I had been going to the gym regularly. I’m trying not to gain the freshman 15. I have had my fair share of peopblems ill admit theat. I fight all the time and I express my opinion whether people want to hear it or not. Classes are boring to the point where I have switched my majors from psychology to criminal justice. I hope I can continue to go to the gym because I actually really like it.

The one person who has been by my side throughout my whole first semester journey is Marshall. He is truly what I consider a best friend. He is there for me, he cares, and he is harsh sometimes. He makes me get my work done, which is very good. He has such a kind heart, I know a lot of people don’t like him but I can see beyond that, I have gotten to know the real Marshall and I love that!! When I’m in the hallway upset he is the one to come and make sure I’m ok. We have a lot in common; he is the main reason why I haven’t dropped out yet. He has made sure my ass is in line. We have had o many memories together that I will never forget and I know that if we have faith we will make our friendship last forever.

I’ve been so stressed with finals, and I’m not feeling good right now. I will miss the city and the school when I go back home for a month. The friends I have made here at this school and made memories with will forever me a part of me. They have helped me grown and learn and I don’t know how I could ever re-pay you for that. All I can say is thank you, to each and every one of you. I truly appreciate what you al have done to me. To my fellow bloggers, I hope you have a great day and I’ll talk to you tomorrow. Remember: “The best things in life happen when you’re not looking. Which is why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, and dream."