Nausea, one of those things that you hate. Lately I have been very nauseous I'm not sure if it is because of my birth control, or because I am getting sick. My roommate and all my friends are also coming down with a stomach bug. Today I was extremely tired, and all I felt like doing was eating and sleeping. I did however end up going to the store. The weird thing about me is that I will be so nauseous but still eat whatever is NOT good for you to eat. My friend introduced me to a show called Dawson's Creek and I actually really like it. It's is like a teenage soap opera but I can relate to a lot of the characters, plus it's something new to watch.

I have been having a lot of doubts about my future. I honestly don't know what I want to do. I thought I was passionate with psychology but now that I think about it, is that really what I want to study? I know things that I am interested in, but I don't know what I want to study or what I want to be when I grow up. I know its shallow of me but I want a job that I love but also makes a decent amount of money. I don't know what I want to do, I don't know where I want to live or what my future will be at all. This thought of not knowing makes me scared, will I be able to live on my own, and grow up? I feel as if it looks so easy in movies, yet when it comes to real life it's not all a happy life. I know I will need to find a steady job, but where will I live, am I going to meet that one person and when, where? I guess I just have to wait, but waiting is the worst part.

Ive been thinking about maybe self publishing my own book? I love to write yet I am horrible at grammar and spelling, and who is going to buy my book? I guess all my feelings right now are just jumbled up. My feelings on school, my future, and relationships. I just want someone to tell me the pain aspect of what will happen in my future so I can be a little more at ease… but unfortunately that doesn't happen…at all. No one can tell you exactly what your future will be like, or even vaguely what it will be like, but I guess that's the beauty of life. I need to go to sleep and think… goodnight bloggers, and remember: "If you think too much about the future you will miss everything going on in the present."