Oh wow… I haven't written in a whole week! I feel like such a slacker. So much has happened since then. I actually studied for the first time this week. Like, really sat down and studied for about 6 hours. My stomach has been bothering me more than usual lately. I'm not really sure what it is. I have just been really nauseous lately.

I guess the main thing that has happened is that I have switched my major in college. I had been a psychology major but I just switched to Criminal Justice. I realized the psychology program here wasn't for me. I didn't like it, and I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get a job. Stupid I know, but I figured I honestly don't know what I want to do with my life. I figured I would rather pick something I am interested in and go for that, rather than wasting money for 4 years of college where I would just go back. I'm not sure if I made the right choice, but I realized that sometimes you just have to accept that you are utterly confused, and you just need to make the best decision you can with what you have.

I ordered my tickets to go back home for Thanksgiving break! I'm so excited to see some of my old friends back home!! I of course could care less about some of them. I know that I have had bad experiences with a lot of them and I'm not trying to go back to that. I just need to make sure I spend time with my family as well. They are important, and I came home to see them as well. If I can't see everyone in a week, then I still have a whole month to see them in 2 weeks. I am actually planning on going black friday shopping for the first time, and I couldn't be more excited! I realized that I need to start Christmas shopping because most of the people I am giving gifts to are with me at college. I only have ONE weekend when I come back and I will be studying for finals! I realized that the only realistic time for me to go to Target would be tomorrow. I don't know exactly what I am getting because I was trying to save for Black Friday, but because I am skeptical I would rather not take chances.

I am still so confused about how I feel about you. I know that when I talk to you everything just seems so normal. I don't want to mess up our friendship… I talked to people and they think that you like me, but as always I am not sure. It seems like we just have a best-friend type of relationship. I don't know if we would work as a couple. I honestly would like to try it but I have never been in a actual functional relationship so you would have to be patient with me. As for the other situation I just can't see it working out. I hate knowing that but everything I once felt for you is almost completely gone. All I see you as now is a best friend. More like a brother. I can never see us working out and I don't want to waste either of our times when I wouldn't be giving it my 110%.

Until then I'm just going to keep my chin up and try and make the best of the situation. I'm heading off to a movie now, but I real am going to try and write more often!! Goodnight bloggers. Remember: "Sometimes the people you love the most are the ones you need to let go of."