Today was one of those days where your past comes back. I talked to a old co-worker and found out things about where I use to work. I realized how much things have changed for both me and them in the past 3 months. I can say that I know I have matured and I hope that they have too. When I go back for winter break I can only hope that I don't go back into old habits and I stay true to who I am. I am not a part of what I use to be. I'm not going to be that girl who hooks up, and shows off. People change and I have seen that everywhere. I'm simply there to make money and that's it. My life is not there anymore, I'm in college and I am ready to grow up. Anyone that still works there, I know may be down on life. But no matter how low or how old you are, you still have the ability to get up and make something else of your life.

The conversation really made me realize how much I have changed. I no longer think about this summer with you, about how I tried to chase after you without any luck. No longer will I be doing that. I know there will never be anything. I was stupid, and ever since I came here I realized that you were just using me. I never should have fallen, but at least I have learned. I sincerely hope you are happy with how everything is going with you and your new girlfriend. I know things won't be exactly the same, but I don't want things to be the way they were in the summer. I know someday my guy will come to me, but I'm a freshman in college… I have time. Besides if I have learned one thing about relationships and how to make them work is: you guys have to be solid best friends first, you might date other people, and it may take a year or more. Don't rush into things because it won't work if you do that.

I'm so tired, and I'm nauseous as well. I think I'm coming down with something so I'm going to try and get some more rest. Good night bloggers, Remember: "The things that happened in the past are the past, don't let them ruin you, because each day you grow and mature."