2 days ago I hung out with some of my friends, I met a new friend and we had a good time. No thought or care was put into that evening. Little did I know in a few hours both of our lives would be changed forever.

I got the worst news I have ever in my life. The first things I thought of was me… what does this mean for me. But as soon as I thought that I realized I had 2 other people to tell the news to. Two other people who I cared so much for. I didn't know what their response would be. How would they act, and would they hate me forever. The thing that worried me the most however was the fact they would probably resent me for the rest of my life. Telling them what happened would be the hardest thing I have had to do in my entire life. It wasn't my family, it was my best friends. 

I am seriously BLESSED to have such understanding friends. I don't believe in god but something out there was hovering over me that day. I talked to each one of them individually. I owed them that much, both in respect and in friendship. I know things will be different between us, but is that different a bad different? I'm not sure. I really do hope not. One of the people it seemed like it didn't bother him at all. However the other person, I think affected him more. 

Out of this I have learned and had my eyes open to life. It's not always going to be the "normal life" that you thought it would be. Life will give you curve balls, you have two options though. You could run from it and ruin yourself over it OR you can face it, and move on. I know out there, somewhere someone has it so much worse than me. I just need to keep that in my mind. Realize that I'm not doing the worst, not at all. No matter if it gets worse, which I have hope it won't, there is always going to be someone out there suffering worse than me. I can't let this ruin my life, I know it will definitely affect my life forever. It will make the decisions I make something that I need to work on. I will be more careful about everything I say and do. I need to learn from this. 

I needed to get this out as soon as I could. I'll try and write another post later. For now remember: 

In life you're gonna have things that will bring you down. I have friends that understand and support me. I am thankful that I have them in my life. As much as that may be true, don't let it ruin you. There will ALWAYS be someone out there who cares, and will never leave your side no matter what. So even in the darkest hour don't loose hope, you will find that glimpse of light at the end.