Today was better than I had expected. I actually had a good time with my family. A break from what I usually have with them, which is fighting non stop. I had a nice dinner with them and one of my best friends. It was actually one of the best nights I have had with my family in a very long time. I hope that when I come home for the holidays I am able to maintain that relationship.

Seeing so many people with the people they love does make me miss you. I found myself staring at pictures of us I have on my wall from this summer. I sincerely miss the times I was able to spend with you. Even though it was limited I feel as if we have a stronger connection. I think being in college had strengthened our relationship. When we both get back I hope it will be even better than when we left... I feel as if the conversations we have had at the time we were in college have made us grow. If everything you said to me was true, things may turn out? I know I still have you in the back of my mind. But as of right now, you have moved on... and I just have to accept that.

I need sleep, but good night. "If you love tell them, because the unspoken words are what can hurt the most."