Wow it's already November!! I feel as if yesterday was Sep. Today was pretty good. I realized I was the only one who actually dressed up for Halloween… I had to get up at 5am to walk one of my friends to the bus stop. I ran all the way back… I realized how much I love running outside. I feel like it's so much better.

Halloween day was pretty boring. I had a fun evening though. I got to hang out with one of my best friends and watch a scary movie and smoke. I can feel there might be something but at the same time I only see you as drifting away from me. I'm so unsure of everything with that situation right now. I find myself conciously flipping my hair back now. I know I use to do it but now whenever I do it I seems to analyze it…. All I know is that we're friends, best friends, and that's all I want to be right now. You came back into my life a bit however. I thought you had a thing with her but I guess it didn't work out. Does that mean things might change again? I'm honestly not sure if I'm ready for that. I need coaching, I have no idea what I am doing… at all.

I have work tomorrow at 7am, please help me. I am actually sleeping in most of my uniform… I should get to bed. Good night bloggers and remember: "a single smile can change someones life. So smile more, maybe it will change your life?"