Somedays are just "normal" today was one of those days I guess. Nothing special happened just grocery shopping and hanging out. I really don't have much to tell you about my activities today.

However I had more time to think about my life decisions and what I really want in my life, both in the future and in the present. I realized I can't just live my life, and act on impulse. As much as that seems like that's what I want to do, I have to remember that is IN THE MOMENT, what about the future. Ever since Saturday my whole perspective has changed. I realized that I need to make goals, and set standards. I'm not going to be that dumb girl who hooks up with people to feel some sort of connection for one night. No, I want to be the girl who finds that one person, the right person for me. I know it won't just happen, I need time and patines. Something I am not very blessed with. I need to realize great things take time, all I can do right now is be happy, focus on school, and finding who I am. Friends are still coming and going, but I am starting to find people I really do connect to…. I am finally for once….happy.

I have never just taken a moment to look at my life and realize all the good I have in it. Ya, I know I'm still going to have those shitty days when I just want to die. But instead of moping around and just being pissed, I'm going to make the best of it and realize ya, I'm not perfect, my life isn't perfect, but hell, who is?! Somehow the people in my past are fading, the people I thought were right for me at one time are now just friends. I can't see myself with you if you are states away, and our values don't match. Ya, sure we may agree on somethings, but is that really enough? So for now, I have 2 guys on my mind, but even then I just am join to wait and see how things go. :)

Good-night fellow bloggers. Remember: Wake up each morning with a smile, be thankful for what you have and that you are alive. You never know when your life will break apart, so live it up!